Wednesday, March 22, 2017

March 22, 2017 - On Being a Seed, Part IV


[This is Part IV of “On Being a Seed.”  Click Part I, Part II, and Part III for the prior episodes.]

Now there was only one thought on my mind:  the land of liquid gold.  I had to have it.  I drove myself upward in a fury.  When I encountered any obstacle, I either bore a hole straight through it or I sent my tendrils around it.  I was on a bizarre mission, and I could see the furtive glances from the denizens of the Underworld.  There was a look of anxiety in their eyes because I was going where they could not.  And there was jealousy, too.  There was steaming, jealous anger.

But I didn’t care.  I drove myself upward relentlessly, eating everything in my path that I could.  As I ate, I grew stronger, and the water dancer seemed pleased.  Horrified, but pleased.  I was no longer her slave, to do with as she wanted, pushing me this way and that.  Now when we talked, it was as old friends, and she gave up trying to drown me.  At least, it seemed that way, but later I learned things about her which made my heart go cold.  She is a shape-shifter, that one, but that is for another story.

Bright blazing, He.
Finally, I instinctively knew that I was right near the hidden upper world.  One more knock against the hard ceiling and it would smash to smithereens.  I was the destroyer.  I stopped for a moment and looked around myself.  The denizens of the Underworld were watching me.  Some were scurrying away quickly.  Many others were cowering in a corner.  But there was a sizeable group that just watched me from a distance with a knowing look in their eyes.  There was jealousy, yes, but I thought I saw mockery as well.  Hunger, too.

It was too late to teach them a lesson for their insolence, though.  I was at the defining moment, and I was not about to lose the land of liquid gold, the place for which I had hungered incessantly.  I told myself that if I ever came back to the Underworld, I would find those who had mocked me and I would devour them.  (But I was younger then.)

At last the time arrived.  I pulled as much strength into myself as I could, and then I smashed right through that hard ceiling.  And what did I see?  Well, what I saw changed everything.

In the first second I saw the liquid gold.  It was everywhere, just as the water dancer had said.  I was in awe as I turned my head upward to where I imagined the source of the gold might be.  And then I saw Him.  He was unlike anything I had seen or known before.  In a million years, I could not have imagined such magnificence, such shining brilliance.  I had seen the King.

Truly, this was a God!  The idea entered my mind for the first time that there was a Master of the universe, and perhaps I was looking at Him.  I felt searing, burning, horrible pain in my eyes from the brilliance of this being, and yet I could not tear myself away from looking at Him for even a moment, so beautiful He was.

And then I felt tiny, so very, very tiny.  I felt insignificant.  I felt that I was nothing but a worthless wisp of Underworld.  And what was the Underworld compared to this incredible sight?  I wished for a moment that the water dancer would appear and just drown me, but she was nowhere in sight.  I was alone and tiny and useless, and I turned my head downward in sorrow.  I looked away from the brilliance because I thought I was not good enough for it.

What happened next, I will never forget.  This magnificent being put His hand under my chin and raised my head up and said, ever so gently and sweetly, “Rise up, little one.”

I felt an indescribable, beautiful warmth unlike anything I had ever felt before.  It filled my whole being, and I cried and cried.  How is it that a dirty wisp from the Underworld could have caught the attention of such a magnificent King?  It was beyond my comprehension at the time.  The King—the God!—was talking to me, had noticed me.

“You are no longer just a seed,” he said.  “See, I give you the Light.  I have chosen you for Myself.  Now you are Mine.”

Then He kissed me and gave me a shiny green ribbon and told me to wear it joyfully in my hair, which I immediately did.  It was the first color I had ever seen, and even though I would go on to see many more beautiful colors, green has always remained my favorite.  For the first time I could remember, I thought I might be beautiful.  I was so happy.

The land of liquid gold was nothing like I had thought it would be, and the King, well, He was certainly not what I had expected.  Nothing could have prepared me for this beautiful and humbling land.  I felt foolish, even stupid.  But I was able to let go of that soon enough because nothing could dull the joy I felt upon having met the King and having received my green ribbon.

Imagine my surprise, though, when I looked around and saw other tiny wisps emerging from the Underworld!  The King stopped at each and every one of them—every single one—and kissed them and gave them a shiny green ribbon, just as He had done with me.  I felt a cold stab of jealousy in my heart.  I wanted the King all for myself!  I could see the rapture in every emerging wisp around me, and I knew that they thought and felt the same thing I did.  All the love and admiration was in their eyes.  And so was the jealousy.

We looked guardedly at one another.  This was not going to be easy.  I made a decision to continue to painfully grow, and I raised my head upward toward the King.  There was much to do and not much time in which to do it.

[Click here for Part V.]

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

March 8, 2017 - The Painter and the Sculptor


Once upon a time there was a painter and a sculptor, each the best and most talented among his brethren.  Their fame spread far and wide throughout the land, so far it seems, that even Mother Nature had heard of them and was interested.  It takes some doing, I can tell you, to peak her interest for there is nothing new under the Sun.

With their fame, however, came an odd feud between the people who revered them.  Each side felt that the artist they supported was the superior artist and the other was second-rate.  This might not have mattered so much, but the problem was that each “side” wanted the other “side” to capitulate, to admit that the artist of the other side was superior.  Each side sneered at the other.  It went from sneering to mocking to yelling to throwing stones and even worse . . . until a great deal of noise was upsetting an otherwise beautiful world.

The uncovering . . .
It was at this point that Mother Nature began to take notice.  It was not so much that she was impressed by either one of the artists because, as I told you, there is nothing new under the Sun.  What made her take notice was the constant din in the world she had agreed to fashion.  It had become so obnoxious that many of the animals were going away and hiding on the edges of the world just to get a little peace.  Usually when something like this happens, she simply smites the humans and starts over.  Wouldn’t you?  But this time, since she did recognize the extreme talent of both artists, she decided to hold a contest to see which one was best.

I might as well tell you here and now that Mother Nature did not believe one artist was better than the other.  She simply recognized their very different talents and hoped that she could bring that recognition to the people by holding the contest.  After all, people often need help to see what is right in front of their eyes.

Well, the day of the contest came, and people came from far and wide to see what the artists might do.  Each person held in his heart the idea that his artist would finally be recognized as superior and the other would have to bend his knee.  Each person was filled with false pride and condemnation.  Each person relished the idea of being “right,” not because “right” was best but because “wrong” was simply out of the question.  With “wrong” comes condescension, and with condescension comes condemnation.  It is a fatal human flaw.

The trumpets sounded loudly to announce the beginning of the contest, and as always, Mother Nature had to make a grand entrance.  (You must know that this is her habit as she is anything but dull.)  With a great clap of thunder, the Earth shook violently, and then a blinding flash of light was followed by a cloud of deep grey smoke.  Everyone fell to the ground trembling in fear.  The smoke quickly cleared, though, and Mother Nature stood in their midst, wearing her gown of ever-changing color and scenes.  As she moved, she seemed to appear and disappear depending upon whether the scene in her gown matched the surrounding area.

So she sat upon a great golden throne, which everyone swore that only moments earlier had not been there.  The trumpets sounded again, and the people were told to sit and watch the contest.  Of course, two groups formed, each filled with the members that supported their own artist—either the painter or the sculptor.  It was all very black and white with no in between, and this caused a heavy sigh to come involuntarily from the Lady on the Throne.

Not one to wait around for small talk, Mother Nature stood quickly and clapped her hands three times.  At once, a large canvas appeared in the clearing, which was surrounded by hundreds (perhaps thousands!) of vials of paint and many brushes and spatulas for the painter to use.  As if on cue, he appeared to a thunderous applause from his followers.  He was a flamboyant young man dressed in fine silks with a cap and a feather on his head.  He bowed low to the ground before Mother Nature, who rolled her eyes and yawned at his conceit and groveling.  She said not a word—not one—but merely pointed to the canvas with a long and bony index finger.

The painter went at once to the canvas, drawn by the vast array of beautiful paints.  He had planned on making a vivacious show, but he was overwhelmed by the beauty of the paints before him.  Without further comment, he set straight to work.  He was a strong and vigorous young man, and he moved quickly between the vials of paints, mixing this perfect color and that, splashing them on to the canvas with a look of true rapture in his eyes.  It was evident that even though he was a flamboyant and overly showy young man, his art was sincere and humbling and true.

A hush came over the crowd on both sides as they watched him paint the canvas.  Future painters watched him with the utmost admiration, holding deeply in their feverish hearts the desire to be just like him.  As he worked, the most beautiful woman ever seen appeared magically before the eyes of the beholders.  She was so delicate and so pure and so perfect, that every man there desired her immensely and every woman both loved and hated her most jealously, indeed.  Even Mother Nature was taken aback (and perhaps a little annoyed) by her stunning beauty and the talent of the man who had painted her.

When the painter finished, he stepped back and sat quietly on the ground.  He had planned earlier to make a great and raucous fuss upon his completion, but in the end, he sat humbly in front of the canvas with love shining in his eyes.  In that moment, he could not have known how beautiful he himself was.

“You have done well!” Mother Natured boomed, surreptitiously wiping a tear from her eye.  This contest had already become much more than she had anticipated, and that made her uncomfortable because things rarely ever happened without her anticipating them.  But even the maker of this world has to follow the Law.

Then she abruptly stood and clapped her hands three times yet again.  At once, a large piece of marble appeared in the clearing, which was surrounded by dozens and dozens of hammers, mallets, and chisels of all shapes and sizes.  Some were pointy and sharp; others were dull and raspy.  Anything the sculptor could need was there.

As if on cue, he appeared to a thunderous applause from his followers.  He was a very old man, bent and crooked and crippled.  Unlike his flamboyant and almost floating counterpart, he was slow and quiet and dressed in dirty and torn clothes.  He nodded briefly and absentmindedly toward Mother Nature, who narrowed and fixed her eyes on what seemed to be almost impertinence to her.  She said not a word—not one—but merely pointed to the marble slab with a long and bony index finger.

The sculptor limped quietly to the marble, drawn by the beautiful tools at his disposal.  He had planned on using his own old chisel, thinking it the best tool ever, but when he saw the fine tools before him, he was overwhelmed with the thought of what he might create.  Without further comment, he set straight to work.  He was an old man, old and tired, and he moved slowly around the marble as he hammered and chiseled this way and that.  He had never used such fine tools before, and he was surprised and humbled by their exactness, having never before thought of the workmanship that might go into the creation of his tools of trade.  This gave him a humble appreciation, even a reverence, for the quiet workers who had helped him in his art all these years without him ever having known.

A hush came over the crowd on both sides as they watched him split and chisel and shave the marble.  Future sculptors watched him with the utmost admiration, holding deeply in their feverish hearts the desire to be just like him.  As he worked, the most beautiful man ever seen began to suddenly appear out of the marble.  He was in a reclining position, sleeping peacefully.  His features were bold and strong and warrior-like, and every woman there desired him immensely and every man grudgingly acknowledged his superior alpha form.  Even Mother Nature was taken aback (perhaps a little feverishly) by his beauty and strength and the talent of the man who had sculpted him.

When the sculptor finished, he jumped back quickly in a movement that startled even himself, and he let out a little yelp.  He had planned earlier to simply walk away upon his completion, but in the end, he grinned broadly at the beautiful marble youth before him, enjoying his own talent in a way he had never done before.  In that moment, he could not have known how much more human he had become to the spectators.

“Well done, old man, well done!” Mother Natured boomed, secretly feeling her own heart aflutter by the beautiful marble man.  This contest had become so much more than she had planned.  How was she to choose between these two artists?  How was she to say which one was best and which one was second-rate?  For surely, they were both masters.

She decided, as she always decides, that Truth is best.  And this is what she said:

“Painter, you have reached into the secret garden of your heart and mind.  Even more than that, you have reached into the secret gardens of the hearts and minds of everyone here.  You have found what is best in beauty and grace, and somehow you have managed to convey that on your canvas.  You have been able to combine the secret desires and longings of every person here and put them magically on your canvas, and because of this, we are all made better and humbler.”

The followers of the painter cheered wildly, and even some of the followers of the sculptor cheered as well, having realized the gift of beauty and color that had been given to them.

“Sculptor, you have uncovered what is hidden in every person’s heart and soul.  Even more than that, you have let them know that grace and beauty are always within and can be revealed at any time, should one be brave enough to mercilessly use the hammer and chisel.  What appeared to be nothing at all is now revealed to be everything, and because of this, you have sparked the courage and bravery of us all to uncover our hidden gifts.”

The followers of the sculptor cheered wildly, and even some of the followers of the painter cheered as well, having been given the gift of the knowledge of uncovering.

When the cheers subsided, the crowd grew quiet.  All eyes turned expectantly to Mother Nature, who was now on the spot to make a choice.  But before she could make a pronouncement, noises were heard in the clearing by the canvas and the marble.  There a group of children were playing with the paints and sculpting tools.  Some were merrily throwing the paints and tools around into a terrible mess, but others were earnestly trying to paint and sculpt.  Yet all of them—each and every one—was smiling and laughing.  Art and beauty, after all, will not be denied.

Several people from both sides then walked away together, having formed a third group.  These people would go on in the future to become the wise men and women throughout the ages of man who would try to guide humankind in truth and fairness.  The other people who were still left on one side or another walked away in their own directions, marveling at the talent of their artist, whom they all agreed was clearly the best.  Painter or sculptor, it did not matter to these people.  What mattered was being right.

In the end, Mother Nature was left all alone with the painter and the sculptor.  To each she gave an unlimited supply of their respective tools of trade, and both of them thanked her profusely.  They left together, the old sculptor leaning heavily on the arm of the young painter, who willingly and humbly supported the old man.

And now all that was left was Mother Nature, the painting, and the sculpture.  She took two bits of cloth from her ever-changing dress and draped one across each piece of art, and immediately each one began to move and shift, appear and disappear.  She left the art to flow into the forest, and I am told if one has a discerning eye, one can still see the beauty here and there.  In the end, though, there is nothing new under the Sun.  Things are merely revealed when we are ready to see them.

Friday, March 3, 2017

March 3, 2017 - On Being a Seed, Part III


[This is Part III of “On Being a Seed.”  Click Part I and Part II for the prior episodes.]

It was not the first time I had died, and it would not be the last.  The dancer held me mercilessly under the water until I had drowned completely.  My struggles were weak and in vain; she was too powerful.  But more to the point, she delighted in it, and a passion like that cannot be stopped.  And so the darkness poured out of me and the water poured into me.

This was the first time I remembered feeling the pulse.  It was in the water itself.  It was the water.  It was a feeling of going back and forth, back and forth.  It was a swelling and receding, and there was a faint sound to it, a rhythm.  Because in the beginning there was sound, and there was an inexplicable pull.

But I was free . . .
But I was free from my prison.  There I lay in the cool, dark Earth.  Dead.  And all around me were the denizens of the Underworld, each in a different state of death.  It was all so beautiful.  I’m not sure when it happened as I lay in the darkness, listening to the pulse, but I began to feel a tremendous hunger.  I don’t know where it came from.  Perhaps it was from the point that had fallen inside of itself, that point from so long ago, that point from the other world.  It doesn’t matter, though.  All that mattered was the incredible, insatiable hunger.

And so I ate.  I ate the creatures of the Underworld that were all around me.  I ate and I ate incessantly of the most delicious substance.  I didn’t ask permission, and it wouldn’t have mattered to me if they had said no.  Like the water dancer, I was consumed with passion.  All that mattered was that I must eat—and eat I did!—and as I ate, I began to feel the ripping and tearing again.  Where had I felt that ripping and tearing before?  That should have been enough to stop me, but it did nothing to slow me down, nothing at all.  As I ate, I ripped and tore myself in a terrible process that I would later learn was called “growth.”  Growth was horrible, indeed.  Dying was so much easier.

Sometimes the water dancer would come around, but now that I was larger with many tendrils reaching outward, she could no longer drown me.  That didn’t stop her from trying, though.  It was a continual dance we danced.  She would flit this way and that, and I would trap her in my many tendrils.  Once when I had swelled so large and threatened to hold her in an endless embrace, she said that if I let her go she would tell me a great secret.  So I let her go, and she told me.

“High above you,” she said, “There is a hidden world of such immense delights that it makes the Underworld pale in comparison.”

“Pah!”  I scoffed at that.  “What could be more beautiful than the darkness?”

“There is a land of liquid gold, I swear it!”

I wondered to myself.  Liquid gold?  I had already seen the hard and glinting gold of the Underworld.  It was beautiful, indeed, something to be coveted.  What must liquid gold be like?  Gold that moved and flowed?  Already, the hunger for the gold was beginning.  The water dancer began to sound the drums again, louder this time.  The pulse was beckoning me.

“Upward!” I screamed, and I began my relentless climb up and up.

“But there is a great King who guards the gold!” she shouted after me.

Ha!  A king?  We shall see about that, I thought.  I relished the idea of a new world and new delights to eat.  Perhaps I would eat the king.

[Click here for Part IV.]

Sunday, February 12, 2017

February 12, 2017 - On Being a Seed, Part II


[This is Part II of “On Being a Seed.”  Click Part I for the prior episode.]

Things change in the darkness.  In the beginning, there was sound.  It was not light that was first, but sound.  I was wrong when I thought that light was the beginning.  It was all I knew at the time.  To believe that light was first is to not understand how the unmanifest becomes manifest.  It is not light that heralds life, but sound.  For who called the light the first time?  And how did the calling sound?  Only afterward did the light appear, after it heard its name.  This is the First Blasphemy of the seed.  This is what the seed knows as it sits in its tiny prison, hidden in the darkness of the Earth . . .

It was a tapping I heard, a tap-tap-tapping.  I was roused from my silent slumber by a tapping that would not stop.  At first it was quiet, barely audible.  It was sporadic.  A tapping and then silence; a tapping and then silence.  But it grew quickly, coming louder and faster, until all I could think about was the constant, gnawing tapping.  In the tiny chamber of my prison, the tapping echoed back and forth against the walls, each tap questioning and answering the tap before it.

It was a kind of music, a rushing song, tapping and tapping out its haunting melody.  I listened, entranced.  On my knees, I wanted nothing more than for the music to continue forever, because it pleased my new-found ears.  Because in the beginning there was sound, and it was sound that called forth the thought of the Great Alchemist, which had been imprisoned.  It was sound that broke the barrier and named all that was previously unnamable.

And so I was completely unprepared when the wall of my prison cell was rent in two.  The sound was astronomical, a crushing, ripping, tearing sound filled with wonder and terrible majesty!  It was horrible in its kindness.  The veil that hid me for so long was finally torn asunder.  The prison was breached.

Then in rushed a dancer so quickly, I didn’t have time to get off my knees.  There were thousands of tiny bells on her skirt, tapping out a siren’s song.  She ripped me from the doomed ship I had been on, the ship that had crashed into the rocks.  She saved me.  And then she drowned me.

[Click here for Part III.]

Sunday, February 5, 2017

February 5, 2017 - Ice Soldiers

ICE SOLDIERS

Sparkling, tiny snow diamonds.
Crystals from another world.
Liquid made solid,
held in a mineral trap.
Imprisonment of water
and theft of light
in a perfect crystalline structure.
Order!  We will have order!
Millions of tiny ice soldiers
march into battle,
the sun glinting off their helmets,
their cause for war long forgotten.
Water under a bridge.


Thursday, January 19, 2017

January 19, 2017 - On Being a Seed, Part I


In the beginning that was before the beginning, there was a blinding flash of light.  My eyes were stunned, and everywhere the light pulled at me in all directions.  I was stretched across the universe in an agonizing tearing, and when I had reached the very tips of it, when I could bear no more pain, I snapped back to myself.  Farther and farther I rolled back to myself until I was just a tiny point, invisible to the human eye.  Then the point fell inside of itself and I was gone.  The light could not reach into the void.

Imprisoned.
Deep in the nowhere, I sat huddled in the darkness, cowering in fear of the unknown.  I longed for the light and the pain because it was all that I had known, but that world had passed.  In this new world, I found the vastness of the darkness.  It stretched beyond the universe, which it held like a tiny marble in a child’s hand.  The darkness was silky and soft and smooth.  There was no need to move, no grasping, no pulling, no tearing.  Everything was as it should be.  Everything was balanced.  Everything was perfect.  And eventually, the memory of the Great Light began to fade.  The Darkness poured into me.

Out in the world of light, a hard, spiky prison was built.  They placed me in a cell within that prison for the crimes I had committed against the light, and they sealed it tightly with all the Magic they had.  Then they buried the prison in the depths of the Earth, in the deep, cool darkness.  They could not have known what they had done.

And there I slept in the beauty of death.

[Click here for Part II.]

Saturday, January 14, 2017

January 14, 2017 - Breathe In


I’m sitting on the bench near the river, just as I have hundreds of times, relaxing in the shade of the young maple tree.  The breeze blows gently this way and that.  The scent of the river and the river creatures hangs in the air.  There are birds tweeting loudly in the trees, and insects are humming everywhere.  I have to be careful of mosquitoes and ticks.  The fresh green grass is so lush and full of hidden life, after all.

Now breathing out.
But it’s so nice and relatively quiet in the shade, away from the glaring sun.  It’s a welcome respite from the oppressive heat.  There are a few pleasure boats moored on the other side of the river, and their owners come now and then and sail away, only to return as the sun reaches the horizon.  I watch them come and I watch them go, and while they’re gone, I watch the fish jumping and the ducks paddling.  The world is teeming with life.

I take deep breaths because I am alive and the fresh air feels so good.  It’s warm and moist, and I fill my lungs to full capacity.  Then I breathe the world out while it breathes me in.  We trade back and forth:  I breathe in the world, then it breathes in me.  One breathes while the other exhales, and then we trade.  In one moment I am a part of everything, and in the next moment everything is a part of me.  I’ve been dancing this dance since I was born.  Maybe before.

Then everything goes away.  The colors fade and then disappear completely.  The insects leave.  Many birds fly away.  The fish are nowhere to be found, and the pleasure boats have vanished.  The water that supported everything has crystallized.  The Great Alchemist waves his hand and the liquid realm transmutes to the mineral realm.  The world is teeming with death.  It is the way of things.

The World has breathed out and the Universe has breathed in.  They trade back and forth.  The World breathes in the Universe and fills itself to full capacity.  Then it breathes out while the Universe breathes the World in.  One breathes while the other exhales, and then they trade.  In one moment the World is part of everything, and in the next moment everything is part of the World.  It is a very, very old dance that started long before I was born.  It is a good dance.

Soon the World will breathe in again and so will I.  My dance card will be filled with handsome beaux, and everywhere the music will follow a perfect rhythm designed before time began.

Saturday, January 7, 2017

January 7, 2017 - Let Him Hear


But the ears of the forest are very much alive and listening.  It is not words they crave, but thoughts.  I place my hands over my own ears as I walk by as if to somehow keep my thoughts inside my head.  If I cannot hear the trees, they cannot know my intentions.  Like a child who thinks mother has disappeared forever simply because she has left the room, I indulge in my fantasy of giving them the slip.

The ears of the forest.

Words are a mere skeleton, but thoughts flesh out the world.  It is akin to the difference between a two-dimensional world and a three-dimensional world.  There’s no competition; they are universes apart.  So I sing as I walk.  “Ol’ man river, that ol’ man river.  He don’t say nothing, but he must know something . . .”*  Maybe they’ll concentrate on the words of the song and so will I, and then neither of us will have to deal with my thoughts.

Wishful thinking.  The Lord of Winter is up ahead, and I can see the impatience on his face.  He masks it quickly, though.  He doesn’t want me to know that he has been waiting for me.  That’s a sign of weakness, and he’s never weak.

“Alone at last,” he says.
“Always alone,” I respond.  This makes him smile.
“Then let us walk on a bit further.”
“We have been walking a long time together now, and it’ll be dark soon,” I argue, but he tells me that it is already dark and has been for a long time.  I know I shouldn’t listen to him, but I’ve taken my hands off my ears and placed them in my pockets because of the cold.

Onward we trudge.  At last I sit down at the top of a snow-covered ridge.  I’m really lying down more than sitting down, actually, because the snow is so soft.  A winter bed is hard to leave, after all.

“We’ve been walking for a long time,” he says.  “Tell me, what have you found?”
“I’ve found nothing but the cold and ice,” I tell him.
“I gave these to you.”
“Yes.”
“Do you like my gifts?” he asks, and I tell him I do, but I’m not sure if that’s true.
“Are the ice crystals not beautiful?  Do they not sparkle like diamonds?” he asks, and I assure him that they are lovely.
“Are you ready to come back with me?” he asks.
“I’m not sure.  I suppose I should.”
“Indeed, you should.”

I lay there, thinking.  Can the ears of the forest hear my thoughts now?  Maybe there really isn’t a gift at the end, after all.  Another deep breath of the fresh forest air, I tell myself, and then I’ll get up and follow him.

I look at the snow and ice on the edge of the ridge.  My eyes are only a few inches away from it as I lay there, and I can see the little ice crystals within, quite orderly and beautiful.  Then I take a deep, deep breath, and as I do so, the last ray of the sun as it begins to set far, far away breaks through the cloud cover and dances on the ice before my eyes.  It’s a tiny twinkling, like a sparkling, dancing flame.  And then it’s gone from my vision.

But not from my heart.  I had quite forgotten that I left a tiny flame there long ago.

“Are you coming?” he asks.  “We had better make tracks while we can.”
“No.  I’m staying a bit longer.”
“What??  Haven’t I given you freely of my winter delights?  Will you treat my gifts so callously??  I have moved mountains for you!  You know that I would do anything for you!  There is nothing left for you here!”

And it’s true that all around me in this season of death, I see nothing but the ice and snow.  I waver in my decision, but then I see the tiny sparkling light again on the ice at the top of the ridge.

“Why would you want to stay here?” he shouts.  “What do you have here?”

I look at the tiny spark, and I say, “I have him.”

And now there is silence.  Even the ears of the forest, strain though they may, can hear nothing.

Finally, I turn to him and ask, “What do you have?”

Again the silence . . . and then a tiny flash in his eyes.

“I have you,” he says.

He walks away.  We both know we’ll meet back here again in the forest someday soon.  But today is not that day.  Today there is a tiny point of light that I must investigate.

Of course, the forest has heard everything, and already the trees are busy clicking out their raspy message:  Long live the King.

There is a great deal more hardship ahead, but I am still standing.  And somewhere far away, a tiny butterfly’s wings continue to beat impossibly tiny waves of energy into the ether.

_______________
* Paul Robeson

Saturday, December 31, 2016

December 31, 2016 - Faith


Now the deep sleep begins in earnest.  The thick white blanket has been pulled over all of life, like a veil across a temple opening.  We know there is a mystery hidden deeply within the holy chamber, but we cannot see it.  There are no signs of life.  The silence of death is comforting.

Hidden.
There is only one thing left now:  Faith.  Faith is the belief in something which cannot be seen, and it gives us evidence of unseen things as surely as if they stood before us.  It is the knowledge that everything coming into our world comes from the unmanifest, and that consciousness is the one true origin of reality.  Faith gives flesh, if persisted in, to those things for which we secretly hope.

Hope is the prayer.  Faith is the deliverer.